Instant gratification

Life these days is all about instant gratification. Every thing I could ever want is right here at my finger tips, well actually since my phone is so large it is right here in both my palms as I try to get my tiny baby hands to reach all the way across my phone made for giants. I have been consumed with wanting everything to come to me right away. If I am driving down the road and get lost and my phone won't instantly tell me where I need to go, I GET MAD. I yell at it. I call it a worthless piece of garabge. I tell it I hope you die. Well in all reality my phone is nothing more than an object so it won't die. My biggest problem with instant gratification is communication. The normal conventions of communication are gone and this is a problem for me.

Here is how my mind works:
Me :send a text..wait...wait...wait!
Me: Are you kidding me?? It has been one minute and that dirty little pirate hooker has not responded to me! Are you serious? What is their problem? OOO I guess they are just so busy they can't take two seconds out of their life to answer me. I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS! I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS! **sobbing** IDIOT I DON'T NEED THEM ANYWAYS
Other person: OO Hey whats going on?
Me: okay okay they want to talk to me. Good. So I'll just respond to them.
Me: Sends reply... waits... waits. waits
Me: YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! DID THEY DIE FROM THE EXCITEMENT OF READING MY TEXT. OOO THEY BETTER HAVE DIED OR I WILL KILL THEM!

It's mayhem. It is driving me insane. I am too worried about trying to talk to the person on the other end of technology that I am missing out on things. I am too worried as to why someone won't respond to me immediatly. I have always tried to have the mindset that if someone wants to communicate with me, they will make an active effort to do so. Well I agree with that. If someone wants to talk to you and cares about you they will make an effort to tell you. But just because they do not immediately respond to you does not mean they do not care.

I am a big believer that actions will always speak louder than words. Words are kind of important as well though. I think in this day and age it is hard to accept that people are not going to always be readily available simply because everything else in your life is. It is time for me to accept the things I can not change. The things I can not change are people will not always be there to talk to me just because I send them a text. They could seriously have things to do. It is time for me to accept that life is not about instant gratification. I need to take a step back in time. I need to remember the days when I have to call my friends land line and if they weren't home I just had to wait for them. I need to accept that people are not supposed to be at the tip of my fingers. Instant gratification in communication can cause you anger and pain if you let it. It will make you mad that the stupid idiots on the other end of the line won't respond to the totally meaningful text you sent them about your day, well then I guess it is their own stupid fault for being stupid idiots. It is time to realize that people have lives. Maybe I need to live my life outside of my phone and I won't get so mad.

As a human, I need to do a better job accepting delayed gratification. I need to know that sometimes you have to wait for things. But I also need all you stupid idiots that I text to respond to me in a timely manner before I kill you hahaha. Kidding. Kinda.