Back to school

That is correct. I went back to school, back to school, to prove to all I'm not a fool. You would think that as a wise 24 year old school would be a breeze. Especially since I finally know what I am going to school to accomplish. WRONG! School is so much more stressful for me. For those of you who don't know me well, then you need to know that I am so insanely smart it is scary. For those of you who know me wel, you know that was a gross exaggeration (especially since I had to google how to spell that stupid word). But now that I am in school for what I know I want to do I am scared. It is much more stressful then the first 5 years of college. (I took a victory lap for those of you wondering why it was 5 years). It is the fact I am not sure how to feel. Let me explain.

I am nervous. I am nervous that I will go through all this schooling to get to the career I want, only to be turned away. I am nervous I will never be fully prepared. I am nervous that, even though I have found passion in what I am doing, I am not on the right path. How do you ever know? I feel nervous that I need a job desperatly but maybe I am not ready. But nervousness is good. I feel like I am taylor Swift about to perform on stage. I do not care what she say, everyone gets nervous. It is a beautiful thing if you do not cave to it, but instead embrace it and try to beat it.

I am embarassed. I am embarassed that I am 24, living at home, and essentinaly jobless. I mean society tells me it is time to grow up. It's like I am stuck in this chronic childhood that I can not get out of. When people ask me "What do you do?" (because as a 24 year old then only questions you get asked what do you do? and are you married? Which both questions are just stupid. Like get off me world! I do what I want). Anyways, when I get asked this question I usually just say I am a teacher. Am I actually a certified teacher? Negative ghost rider. Do I teach? Yes I teach people everyday what it is like to be someone who is truly awesome. People just never stop there. They have to know where and what I teach? Well again, quit stalking my life people. Then they know, they just know I live at home. Mom, since you are usually the only person who reads this, know that I am never moving out. I am living with you forever. Most great stories are embarassing ones. This is the start of my great story. We have all been embarassed at some point and all that matters is how you move on from it.

I feel stuck. I am moving forward but not. I feel that I am stuck in this limbo of being adult without the responsiblities. I feel that I have been told over and over that I am supposed to grow up, get a job, get a house, get married. YOU ARE 24 FOR PETES SAKE! I do not need you to remind me how old I am. I still remember thank you very much. I feel that I am like this gross montrosiety that has to be hidden away in my parents basement, when in all actuallity I live on the top floor so it is more like the attic so suck it. I just feel that while I am trying so hard to move forward but I feel nervous I am not ready. I want to teach. I will be challenged with taking care of young adults evryday. Is anyone ever really ready for that?

Finally I feel excited. I am excited that I am kinda going against society and breaking the rules. I am excited that I am moving toward something that feels correct. I am excited that I have the opportunity to do this things. I am excited I have a family and friends that listen to all my crazy feelings and don't judge me. They tell me to quit being crazy but they support me. I have a truly great support group. So if you are one of those people who has listened to all my recent concerns and stresses, since they change weekly, thank you. Thank you for letting me talk to you like I am some deranged lunatic so that I can get it off my chest. Thanks for looking at me like I grew two heads but listening to me none the less. I feel like every time I am excited, I want to dance around like Jesse Saprano on drugs while singing " I'm so, I'm so scared" Excitement is fun. Everything in life should excite you, unless you are dead inside.

I always think I am alone when I have multiple emotions going through me at once, but then I remember I am a female and all females have this insane super power to feel many things at once. The thing about life is that it never takes you on just one turn at a time. It takes you on a zig zag and roller coaster of emotions. As human beings we learn to cope but what is important we do not have to cope alone. There is always a friend or family member there ready to listen to your crazy mind. Let them.

Instant gratification

Life these days is all about instant gratification. Every thing I could ever want is right here at my finger tips, well actually since my phone is so large it is right here in both my palms as I try to get my tiny baby hands to reach all the way across my phone made for giants. I have been consumed with wanting everything to come to me right away. If I am driving down the road and get lost and my phone won't instantly tell me where I need to go, I GET MAD. I yell at it. I call it a worthless piece of garabge. I tell it I hope you die. Well in all reality my phone is nothing more than an object so it won't die. My biggest problem with instant gratification is communication. The normal conventions of communication are gone and this is a problem for me.

Here is how my mind works:
Me :send a text..wait...wait...wait!
Me: Are you kidding me?? It has been one minute and that dirty little pirate hooker has not responded to me! Are you serious? What is their problem? OOO I guess they are just so busy they can't take two seconds out of their life to answer me. I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS! I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS! **sobbing** IDIOT I DON'T NEED THEM ANYWAYS
Other person: OO Hey whats going on?
Me: okay okay they want to talk to me. Good. So I'll just respond to them.
Me: Sends reply... waits... waits. waits
Me: YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! DID THEY DIE FROM THE EXCITEMENT OF READING MY TEXT. OOO THEY BETTER HAVE DIED OR I WILL KILL THEM!

It's mayhem. It is driving me insane. I am too worried about trying to talk to the person on the other end of technology that I am missing out on things. I am too worried as to why someone won't respond to me immediatly. I have always tried to have the mindset that if someone wants to communicate with me, they will make an active effort to do so. Well I agree with that. If someone wants to talk to you and cares about you they will make an effort to tell you. But just because they do not immediately respond to you does not mean they do not care.

I am a big believer that actions will always speak louder than words. Words are kind of important as well though. I think in this day and age it is hard to accept that people are not going to always be readily available simply because everything else in your life is. It is time for me to accept the things I can not change. The things I can not change are people will not always be there to talk to me just because I send them a text. They could seriously have things to do. It is time for me to accept that life is not about instant gratification. I need to take a step back in time. I need to remember the days when I have to call my friends land line and if they weren't home I just had to wait for them. I need to accept that people are not supposed to be at the tip of my fingers. Instant gratification in communication can cause you anger and pain if you let it. It will make you mad that the stupid idiots on the other end of the line won't respond to the totally meaningful text you sent them about your day, well then I guess it is their own stupid fault for being stupid idiots. It is time to realize that people have lives. Maybe I need to live my life outside of my phone and I won't get so mad.

As a human, I need to do a better job accepting delayed gratification. I need to know that sometimes you have to wait for things. But I also need all you stupid idiots that I text to respond to me in a timely manner before I kill you hahaha. Kidding. Kinda.

Months in the making...

I'm BACK!!

After taking a hiatus for many months, I decided to make my epic return to the blogger world. While gone, my life has taken a whole new road and I have decided to take this blog to catch you up on how I stand with my New Years Resolutions. Actually I have chosen just one resolution to catch you up on since it is the one that has generated the most interest with people in my life.

If you remember correctly one of my New Year resolutions was to get over my issue with commitment. I loved dating. I loved going on dates but most of all I loved being courted. I loved everything that went along with courting except the part where you had to put a label on it. That is usually when I would kindly exit stage left. I would take my bow, thank them for a wonderful few weeks and get the heck out of dodge. This time though everything changed. Now, if you think this post is going to be about my relationship and get all mushy then you are WRONG! That is simply not my style. Instead I am going to take you on a journey of how I got to that point in my life where I was ready to try and stay instead of turn and run.

When I started this blog, I was a wanderer that was completely lost in the world. I had no directions and simply had no where I thought I would want to go. I was just out here in the world trying to get by, as many young 20 somethings often do. Then everything changed. I took a leap into a new career. Let me say that I didn't just take a leap, I talked with everyone important in my life about it first.  I spent many sleepless nights worrying. I look back now and have no idea why I did that. Life is about making mistakes and just trying new things. It is about taking these blind leaps and if they don't work out then it is about being able to pick yourself up and try again. Never let life beat you. Well once I found my way down a path I was happier. I was free. I felt like I was ready for anything, but was I?

A few months after starting down the road to teaching (which I mean let's be honest, who doesn't want me to mold the minds of youth into better human beings?) I met a dude. We shall call him my man friend. I went into it at first just like all other dates in my life, I would go out with him a few times, see what happened, but ultimately take my bow out and exit stage left. It was my trade mark. Seriously, my friends and family would ask me if I when I was gonna run away. But something different happened. Something changed. When it reached time for me to become someones girlfriend (ahhh) I didn't say no. I didn't bow out, I didn't turn and run leaving a Jennifer sized hole in the wall. It was like the word no was not in my vocabulary anymore, and then BAM! I had a man-friend (or boyfriend but since he is an adult man-friend is a more accurate description). Then I had to take the next step that comes with being in a relationship, I had to change my Facebook status. As everyone who was born in this century knows, it is not official until it is Facebook official. As my finger lingered over the button to my newly found  status I froze. Not because I wanted to get out of my relationship but because I was changing who I was, or so I thought.

For so  long I had been the chronically single friend. While all my friends were doing the relationship thing, I was the one that stood solid in her singledom. It became apart of my identity. I would tag around my friends and while they brought dates, I would come alone and be okay with it. But I have since realized, adding a title to my name does not have to change who I am. I can still be this amazingly awesome person. I did not have to all the sudden be a new woman . I think my fear with commitment came from the fact of being labeled the single one. I was the runner, the one who ,as Miley Cyrus said "Can't Be Tamed". The one who can't find anyone to meet her standards (because when you are as awesome as me, you tend to have some pretty high standards). I know there are so many people in the world that are like that, who think they are supposed to be single and commitment is stupid. I was once you.I still sometimes fight the urge to run, not because I do not want to be with my man friend but because that is who I was for so long. It's an adjustment but an adjustment, that for now I am happy to make. I haven't changed who I am, just added an new label to something I already was. Commitment is still scary, but a good scary. It's a leap into the unknown. It's about trusting someone. No matter what becomes of me and my man-friend, I am happy I took this leap.

Stay tuned for more because I plan on sticking around this time.

Role of a lifetime

So I started this blog so all of you could come on my journey of self discovery with me. I was lost and scared and had no idea which way my life was going to head. I have started to find peace in my chaos. I had all these dreams about what I wanted to do with my life. I had all these different directions laying out in front of me and I had no idea which road to take. I took a blind leap of faith into one direction and I think I am finally finding peace in the chaos and the road that I was always meant to take. 

      I recently started this thing called "teaching." Now I put that in parenthesis because I am not an actual teacher. I am nothing more than an actress playing the role of a teacher. I have not done anything to be a full fledge teacher yet, I am just a sub. I am just someone trying vigorously  to help shape the minds of the future of america. I must say this role I am currently playing is the role of a lifetime and won that I hope I can keep playing forever. When I first took the step down the teaching road, I was scared. I thought I was just so lost I was grasping at straws of something to do. I took the stage of teaching and I am finding it is my time to shine. I feel alive and like I am actually working toward something that matters. I feel that I am no longer a puppet being controlled by other but I am finally taking steps in my life for myself. 

     That is why I wanted to write this blog today. To say that one step of my life has beeb figured out, or at least for now anyways. Am I saying I am now this insanely wise 23 year old with all the knowledge anyone could ever need. Yes, yes I am. Okay, no I'm not. I am simply saying that I have found a little peace in the chaos that can was my life. I feel lighter. Do I still want to work for Ellen? Yes, so if she is reading this or you know her, tell her I would be more than happy to say forget molding young minds, I am all in. Do I still have a million roads and decisions stretched out in front of me with no idea which one to pick? YESSS! I am going to take them as I go. Do I still have no idea where my life is gonna actually lead? DUH! Who knows without a doubt where their life is going. Now, with all that said, I know that actresses sometimes like to change their look and move onto other roles. But I am currently in the role of a lifetime and have no plans to change. 

Not just for lovers

Valentines day is tomorrow. As a single lady, I know I am supposed to live up to the stereotype and be bitter and sad. I am supposed to be crying into a bucket of cookie dough ice cream while being made painfully aware of how single I am. I am suppose to be a LOVE HATER! I should be planning what restaurant I am going to sit outside of to throw eggs at all the happy couples! Or looking like Reese Witherspoon in the below picture

But personally I love Valentines Day! And if you are someone out there saying, “Of course the single one loves Valentines Day” Well 1) shut up! No one that is single needs someone else to point it out to them, thanks though. We are not out there walking around and pretending that we have invisible boyfriends. In my personal opinion, if I wanted to be in a relationship I could probably find someone but I refuse to lower my standards. 2) Why do people hate valentines day? Like I do not understand!

            As a kid Valentines Day was awesome!  First of all, you were guaranteed to get a Valentine from everyone in your class. You got to make your little “basket” that hung on the front of your desk. You got to go to the store and pick the valentine cards with the faces of the backstreet boys on them and pass them out to everyone! And of course there was class parties and candy! SO MUCH CANDY! Then you got older and realized that no one is forced to give you valentine cards anymore. But the biggest perk is that all the candy goes on sale the day after Valentine's Day! Which leads me to the point of my blog. Now for months I have seen all these articles floating around on facebook of people giving all this advice of why you should get married, what you should do before you get married and blah blah blah. I ask myself everytime who are these people that they get to give me advice. Well I have decided they are no more qualified then I am to be dishing out advice so here is my column on why you should love Valentines Day even if you are single (OOOO THE tragedy). Since everyone knows why you should love the holiday if you are with someone let me tell you why even if you are alone.

1)    You do not have to worry about what you are going to wear. I mean I can wear my sweatpants all day. If I want to go out to a nice restaurant in my sweatpants I can because I am already extremely impressed with myself and I am not shallow enough that I have to dress up for myself. 

2)    I do not have to shave my legs! There is no chance of anyone but me seeing them so they can stay a little hairy. This is definitely an advantage this year since it is so cold out that my legs need the extra insulation.

3)    No pressure of buying the perfect gift for someone else.

4)    No stress about what they are going to get me and where they are going to take me. Personally I think I love Valentines day so much because I live in a Nicholas Sparks world where a guy should tell you he cares everyday instead of having to wait for a special occasion. Get your shit together gentleman.

5)    Time to celebrate the love you have for yourself.

6)    I can watch all the sappy rom-coms I want with out having to worry about what else is going on.

7) You get to buy your candy cheaper the day after!

8) You get to read this lovely blog about why you should love Valentine's Day

              No I am not dissing Valentine’s Day for all of you with that special someone. I am just saying that us single ladies shouldn’t hate it either. No one should think you have to hate it just because you are single. Life sadly :( is not a Nicholas Sparks movie so Valentine's Day is the day where you can be as cheesy and lovey as you want without judgement. But I am a lover of love! I love watching love on TV and seeing people happy because they are in love. So if you are a single lady and a Valentines fan like me then lets party! If you are someone saying, “ You are single so you cant like valentines day!’ Then to you I say YOU CANT SIT WITH ME!

Dime a dozen

            I just read this article called: WHY YOU SHOULD CELEBRATE YOUR FRIENDIVERSARY! I posted it on my Twitter and Facebook already but I am going to go ahead and post it with this blog too. So click on the big bold letters above and read the article. Now as you have probably noticed there is a trend to this blog and the trend goes something like this: I read or watch something, then I post my insanely insightful thoughts about it on here, my blog. Yall pretty much have a running commentary of what is going through my head at all times of the day, so you are welcome J! So this particular post is going to be about the lingering questions I have from this article and also my feeling after reading it.

            Okay my first lingering question is: How do these girls know like the exact date they became friends? If they don’t are they just picking a random date or are they trying to be realistic about the time they met? If you asked me where I met most of my friends I would draw a blank or come up with a story so greatly interwoven that you would have no choice but to believe me. If you are going to lie at least make sure that it is elaborate enough to be believed but not too elaborate that others can see through the lie. Secondly, the article mentions how people brought them gifts, so do you really get gifts or is that sarcasm? And if you do get gifts, do you have to share them or is there like a gift for each of you? I don’t want some gift I have to share. I want a gift of my own. That’s why I won’t get married. I do not want to have to share anything with my stupid husband (okay that is a little harsh, I would totally share with him, maybe). So friends, when we do have this party: I GET FIRST DIBS ON PRESENTS! And are their Friendiversary cards? If not, can I call dibs on contacting Hallmark first about the idea?

           Okay so this brings me to my take away thoughts. I think the idea of a Friendiversary is amazing. I mean if you are a 90s girl like myself and if you are anything like me you grew up listening to the Spice Girls. In the Spice Girls greatest song of all time they sang the lyrics, “Make it last forever, Friendship never ends.” I mean if the Spice Girls sang about it, then it has to be true! I mean the Spice Girls are pure geniuses, like everyone knows that! Okay back to my point, remember your friends. They will always be the ones there for you. I know that it may seem like all I talk about is friendship, and that’s a lie! I am at that age where I am figuring out what really matters. The age where I should be thinking about settling down and meeting someone and doing all those grown up things like getting married. When my husband/boyfriend is driving me crazy, they will be the ones I turn to for a venting session. I think in this day and age sometimes it is hard to remember friends should be like your family. And sometimes your friends are like your spouse. I mean they know all the gross and crazy things about you that a potential partner might never be able to understand.

           It is so easy nowadays to just send your friend a short text bailing on them and they always understand. It is so easy to just lose touch and not try to actually speak to each other. To think because you are reading their tweets, you know what is going on in their lives. I know how easy it is to push your friends aside because they will always understand. I have done it. I admit it. I have been the bad guy who has something else pop up and bailed on my friends but I knew they would understand. I love the idea of being able to put everything else that is going on in my life aside and just celebrating being friends To put the worries of jobs and boys and money aside for one night to celebrate your ladies! Its good to remind your friends that you do care about them, without having to be the emotional sap that says it out loud. So kudos to you ladies for coming up with or stealing the idea from wherever you got it from! I want to be your friend simply so I can enjoy the party. SO in closing I want to thank my friends simply for being you and let you know that my calendar is pretty wide open nowadays so just let me know when our pretend anniversary is and we will have a GIANT party. Complete with wine and cake!  And if you are really special to me I will get us shirts made with our faces on it! And don’t forget to thank your friends today and you can also thank me for reminding you to thank them! And remember friends are a dime a dozen!

PS: I have no idea what that means, the whole dime a dozen thing, so could someone explain it to me?

Change, Change, Change!

I wrote the title of this blog to the tune of the song, "Chain, chain chain! Chain of fools". So if you did not read it to that tune, I kindly ask you to go back and re-sing the title. Now that the issue has been taken care of, I bring you to the really long-winded point of this blog. I sat down to write (because I am a writer now and writing is what I do) but I did not know the topic I was going to discuss. So I pulled up this website, then I went to twitter and twitter stalked, then still in the mood for stalking swung over to instagram, then landed on Facebook. And that my friends is where I was found the inspiration I needed to write this blog. Mark Zuckerbluger (I don't know his actual know but that sounds close) kind of smacked me in the face with it. It was called Facebook movie! It inspired me to talk about (if you sang the title you should know) CHANGE!! That 5 letter word, (it's actually 6 letters) that I truly used to dread but after watching all these Facebook movies, I changed my opinion on change; you like that I did there, let me just say, PUN INTENDED!

            Okay so this video goes back to when you first got sucked into the dark, time consuming vortex that is social media and fast-forwards to present day. I got lost in this vortex in 2007! 2007 for me was seriously like a lifetime ago for me. I look at the post I made and the pictures I posted back in the day compared to this year. I look at who I was friends with and the type of person I considered myself and I realize I have changed. I use to think sharing all this personal stuff on the Internet was stupid, but then I got to see this video and realized that the world got to see the changes I have gone through. And hopefully they can see the journey I went on from being the most awesome person ever to be even awesomer (yes, it is a word! If twerk is a word, awesomer can be a word!) Now let me take a step back and tell you about my long struggle with the word change.

            Have any of you ever watched Boy Meets World? (If you haven’t then I kindly ask you to step away from the computer, and go watch every season. THEN AND ONLY THEN will you be allowed to read this blog because I do not want any weirdoes who haven’t watched Boy Meets World reading this blog!) Well there is one episode where Cory has a mental breakdown because everything is changing. That is how I use to feel. If my mom would bring home a flavor of Cheez-its that was not the original, I would freak out because that was a change! Like how dare she insult the original cheez-its and buy the changed version! You may be thinking that the Cheez-its show the larger picture, but no! I really like the original flavor daggum it! No but seriously, if something as small as a Cheez-it flavor could freak me out then I was in for a world of breakdowns in my life. As I look back at the video, I see all these things that have changed in my life. Changes I did not realize until they were over!

            As I continue to grow up, I realize things are constantly going to change. Food I thought I would hate forever, I have grown to love (like some of the non-original flavored Cheez-its I have truly grown to dig). I have lost friends I did not think I would, but found new friends to take their place. As you change, you will have friends that will embrace you for that and you will also have friends that will say PEACE! I have realized that if I do lose these friends, it means my change was for the better because those people sucked anyways. I have changed in that I have quit worrying so much about what other people think and started to put more value in my own thoughts and myself more. I have changed in the fact I am more confident than ever in myself. I do not need the validation of others to decide my life. I do not need others to tell me I am awesome because I know it to be true (although hearing it now and then would be nice) I have CHANGED! My friends have CHANGED! MY LIFE HAS CHANGED!! I will not longer cower in the corner at the thought of change. I will no longer try to fight change. I will no longer be scared to say the word change. I will embrace it. I will give it a nice warm hug because I know that in the end, CHANGE IS GOOD! Nothing can stay the same forever; if it did life would be so boring and if there is one thing I hate it is being bored! I think this is the way life was intended, to be able to look back in 5 years and say, “WOW, I sure am glad my style has changed! And man am I glad I am no longer friends with that basket case” It is just the way it is, so I am jumping on the change train and moving along with my life. 

14 for '14

Every year I say I want to do all these cool things that I have never done before and swear that I will accomplish before the ball drops on New Year's Eve and somehow, some way I fail. (thumbs down motion goes here). This year is going to be my year. I say that exact phrase every year but this year I truly believe it. This year will be the year that I do something great. I break out of my shell and show the world what I am all about, and show them I am Jennifer Johnson and I am AWESOME!! So in this brilliant mind of mine, I thought that if I put my goals on the World Wide Web then I would have no choice but to complete them because then the world and my millions of followers can hold me accountable. So here are the 14 things I want to complete in the year 2014! (Get it, 14 for ’14, I am so clever.)

           

1.     Go to California and attempt to get a job with Ellen DeGeneres. So this has always been a dream of mine  (since I was 18, which means 5 WHOLE YEARS) and since I talk about it in every blog, I added it to my list so I finally do it. Plus it is first on my list so the most important. I mean the worst that can happen is that I will be thrown in jail for stalking and will have a cool story to tell out of it.

2.     Go on a road trip by myself. I LOVE ROAD TRIPS!!! This year I want to get in a car and just start driving. Maybe I can go see the World’s Largest Ball of Yarn or the World's Largest Basket (yes, they are both real. I Wikipedia them and we all know Wiki never lies). Depending on how far I go, I may bring someone with me, but I have always wanted to see what it was like to travel alone. To be free to make my own decision about where I stop and what World's Largest attraction I stop at without someone wanting to see something stupid. ME TIME!

3.     Travel somewhere exotic. Last year I went to Europe (which is somewhere I have always wanted to go), so this year I want to travel to another far away land. Learn something about a country that is not my own. Meet people that are not from these parts and experience something that is unique.

4.     Get over my fear of commitment. I have this fear of actually committing to a relationship for no reason. I do not want to say “fall in love” or anything crazy but just get over my fear of actually being in a relationship. If I find someone this year then be willing to say okay and take myself off the market (EEK)

5.     Acts of kindness. I want to try and complete a random act of kindness for someone else at least twice a week. I would love to do everyday but being as I am unemployed I do not leave my house everyday, I do not interact with other humans daily making this impossible unless I was totally selfish and completed random acts for myself. Which how would that even work? How is one kind to oneself?

6.     Enter a contest and WIN! Oh, yes. I am winning something this year! I would prefer this to be a singing contest but maybe something more with in my means. But then again I do sound like Celine Dion when I sing, so it is a possibility.

7.     Volunteer…….. as tribute! No seriously, do some volunteer work. I mean that should be easy right. I mean every year I say I will volunteer and I always put it off. It always becomes one of those things I can start the next day and lo and behold I reach the end of the year and have not volunteered. So now tomorrow is officially today!

8.     Read 50 books that don’t have pictures! I love getting lost in a world that is not my own while expanding my mind. It is easy to get lost in a television series world but reading, I am expanding my mind and learning in the process. Duh! Plus I get to create the pictures myself without someone showing me what a character looks like; I can make them look how ever I want.

9.     Go see someone in concert I have never seen before live. I am a concert buff! I love them! So this year I want to go to a concert and see a musician I have never seen before and preferably this concert would be free because I am unemployed. I like to keep reminding you that I am unemployed so that you do not forget.

10.  Write more. I love to write! If I were more intelligent I would try to be journalist, but since my teacher once told me I have the grammar of a kindergartener I feel this will not be possible. But I will still write more and maybe see if I can get freelance job writing.

11.  Let others know how I feel about them. I mean the world keeps spinning and I am starting to learn it’s about quality not quantity. The people in my life I care about need to know that I care about them. It is kinda a no brainer. If I think you suck as a person and my life would be better with out you, then I am going to tell you (in a much nicer way) and then I am going to set you free.

12.  Learn a new trade. Learn to do something that I cannot do. Maybe knitting or woodwork. Or maybe learn to play an instrument. Or maybe electrical work, or sewing, or well the possibilities are endless.

13.  Learn a foreign language. I mean from what I hear Italian and French are the language of love and I feel like it would be super cool to randomly start yelling at people in a different language.

14.  Take a dance class! I really want to be more cultured. And this way when I go to work for Ellen my dance moves is in tiptop shape and I will blow her mind! Plus, I have all the moves like Beyoncé but I have always wanted to learn to swing dance.

 There you have it! My super, duper awesome list of things I want to accomplish this year.  I have always heard that, “If I set my mind to it, I can do it.” So this year I am going to set my mind to accomplish all of these. And the good news is that, I will write about my journey along the way so that you know how closely I am following my word. There is a lot more to come from me this year peeps, SO BE PREPARED!!!