How to slowly lose your mind

Yep. I am losing my mind. I have decided that it is time to move with my fiance. Well we decided together. Well I decided then he got on board, then I got nervous and undecided, then he kept deciding, then I said well lets slow down and not be crazy and then he just kept going. So anyways we are moving. Growing up I moved a lot but this time is different for a multitude of reasons. For one, I am moving into a house that I will call a home with a boy and living with boys can sometimes be frustrating. I do not know if you know this but boys can be messy and stinky. Well anyways we are putting his house on the market which makes me feel a lot of mixed emotions. I mean first this is not my house. I do not own it in any way, I simply moved in. Painted it pretty colors, hung my picture on every wall in the house so I could stake my claim. I even hung a picture of a giraffe and a cow because no home is complete with out a cow and giraffe picture. Well anyways, it is hard work to move. First you fix everything up all pretty, then once it is all pretty you start to wonder why you are even moving when the house you have is so cute and nice when it is all fixed up. Then my fiance comes in and tells me that I am losing my mind and we are moving. So I get back on board with everything. So then I move on and we start looking at houses. Then once again I get out of control. We set a budget and I like to be curious and I just start to look out house a little outside of the range just to see what is so pretty. I find a perfect half a million dollar house, show him, make him fall in love with it, then he looks at me to ensure that I do understand that I am just a teacher and he is just a cop and we can't afford a half a million dollar house. I then tell him its okay my other boyfriend will cover it, he looks at me, I ensure him it was a joke and then we go back to the house search. Well after about two weeks of searching for houses we get the bright idea we are gonna build and OMG it is stressful. As a female I have pinned the perfect house for years and I mean yes my house includes an indoor slide and fully stocked wine cellar. And no I do not think these demands are crazy. I am so on bored with just having a wine cellar, I volunteered to give up one of my children and in its place have a wine cellar. I was very close to getting my fiance to agree to this, but sadly he did not fall for it. I tell him those both cost the same amount financially so it shouldn't be a big deal. Anyways my point is that sometimes things in life are gonna get crazy and sometimes you start to do something and you start to plan something and then you get a little crazy and lost along the way but really that is the fun part. It is fun to get lost and crazy and get carried away in a moment and forget about the real world for a while. Trust me, as a teacher I have to live in the real world like all the time. Sometimes it is nice to live in a not so real world, forget about everything for a little and just let loose. So that is what I am going to do when planning my future home. I am going to aim for the crazy high expectations and be happy I have found someone who lets me dream and lets me believe that I am in charge and can have everything I want but always keeps me grounded and keeps me from getting too carried away with everything. He lets me be me and lets me do me but then he gently reminds me that I am in fact crazy. And when I say gently reminds me, he literally tells me I am crazy and not completely there in the brain. It is very kind. But I will say that I highly suggest building  a house. It is so much fun to look at all the options of the world around you. It is always fun in every part of life to look at all the possibilities of life around you. Sometimes it is okay to dream and reach for the dream, and sometimes it is okay to stay grounded. Plus I refuse to give up on my dream of having a wine cellar. I mean hello I told him I could print some fancy wine labels off of the internet and put them on a bunch of bottles of two buck chuck then everyone would be so impressed with our collection. Plus I mean it could get me in a magazine and then I picture the magazine shoot being like the scene in the movie beauty and the beast where Belle is riding the ladder around the library, except it will be full of wine. Anyways, this will get me in a magazine and then everyone will come and read this blog, and then Ellen will invite me on her show. I mean hello I have not given up on that dream. I have faith she is going to call me one day and ask me to come to one of her weekly dance parties that I am convinced she has. Anyways, my point is that I have lost my mind in deciding to build but in losing my mind I am finding my future.