Texting: the double edged sword

I have heard that I am attached to my phone, and I admit first hand that I am. I always have my phone available and what this done is make me readily available to everyone. I try to break this habit. I feel like I have started to do well with not constantly checking my phone then BOOM! It's always attached to my hand again. I love texting. It is an easy way to spread information, it is an easy way to make plans, and it is an easy and fast way to get in touch with someone. I hate how attached I am to my phone, yet I know this will not change. I know this will not change because I am in a relationship where for 8-11 days that is the only way to talk to my man friend. Having a relationship strictly through texting is hardly a relationship at all. You can not tell the tone of the voice of the person you are talking to, you can not see their face when they "hear" your words, so you do not know how they are taking them. You do not know if they are typing out of anger or happiness or sadness. Texting has a way of starting arguments that no one ever intended to have. Texting has a way of making you made when you are readily available to someone and it takes them hours upon hours to respond to you. It hurts when you phone sits there and does not light up. It hurts when you feel like you live your life waiting on a text from someone, waiting on a text that may never come. It hurts when you feel that people should always be as available to you as you are to them,and they see differently. It is hard to describe. Texting really is a double edged sword. You can send a text and never have a disruption to what you are doing. You can talk to people for hours a day through text but in the end you are not really talking to them at all. You are talking to a screen. They are talking back to that screen. IT IS INSANE! I know I am not the first person to feel this way. I can't  be the only person to feel this way. I feel that is I take a little time each day for myself and do not worry about my phone then I can learn to be happier. I can learn to do more. I can learn to live more in the moment around me then in the moments in front of my face. Texting should not be the only way to communicate. Texting should be short and brief. I am going to work harder on understanding that and work harder on not texting as much. There is no reason for anyone to always be attached to their phone so from now on I won't be.

QUIT IT

I am what some people would consider a twenty-something, since I am in my early to mid 20s. I have never really figured out how that works. Am I in my early 20s until I reach 25, then since 5 is half am I in my mid for a year before I switch to my late? In other words what is the math algorithm that helps us decide at what point in our life are we at the point in our lives where people tend to want to label us? You get what I am saying or no? Any ways, I am not going to lie, sometimes being a twenty something is hard work man. Like you are supposed to have it all together but you don't. It is a constant game of comparison. Every time I feel like I have accomplished something, I get on Facebook and see someone my age who has accomplished more. I feel like I went out and had a cool adventure and that stupid One Up Susan (I don't mean like an actual susan so if you are a susan and reading this, I am not talking about you; it is just a general term I am giving) had a better one. She went somewhere cooler and happened to wear a cuter outfit in one of her pics she posted and even though I went to the same place maybe her picture gets more likes because her hair is not blown around her head like a lions mane and her out fit was more on point. WHAT EVER SUSAN I LIKE MY OUTFIT AND MY LIONS MANE! YOU CAN'T SIT WITH ME!

Anyways I am always sitting here like " Really that stoner kid from high school now has that awesome job and owns his own house? That's cool I like living with my mom"

Or " I am so happy in my relationship" checks social media " REALLY SHE"S ENGAGED!! REALLY SOMEONE LOVES HER! WHAT I AM WAY PRETTIER!!!"

And then I see how Taylor Swift is doing all this cool stuff and my dance moves are way better and it's crap that she has all this stuff.

Then all the sudden everything I thought was so great and exciting in my life suddenly seems so inadequate. It seems that someone will always have something better and cooler than I have. Someone will always be better. Then I mentally yell to myself " QUIT IT" Quit comparing yourself to everyone.

I do not think I am the only human my age who does this. I think with social media, It is a trap all people my age fall into. As humans of this age we need to make an effort not to. We need to start saying " I DO NOT CARE. THAT IS AWESOME FOR YOU BUT GUESS WHAT IT IS EQUALLY AWESOME FOR ME SO GET OUT OF HERE!"

The more I compare myself to others, the more I see what I do not have. The more I see what I have not accomplished. I MUST STOP

I need to start focusing on just the good I do. I need to focus on how I am trying to eat healthier and avoided McDonalds so win for me. I need to focus on how I am doing awesome in everything and I do not care what anyone else says. I need to learn to just be happy and quit feeling like I will never be enough or accomplish enough.

Focus on your life. Focus on YOUR happiness. Say yes because you want to, not because it will look cool and get alot of likes and jealousy. Say no because it sounds stupid with out worrying about what other people will think. Stop thinking about what they have and you don't. Think about what you have and what you can gain. Think about where your future is going. Realize you are the one who decides it, not STUPID ONE UP SUSAN. I owe it to myself to think like this and you owe it to me to listen to me and do this too. You also owe it to yourself I guess.